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The unnamed narrator is the novel’s protagonist and tells her story from her first-person point of view. Because she’s conveying her account from her perspective and in her own words, all of the novel’s action and conflict originates from her experience. A 45-year-old woman, she lives in Los Angeles, California, with her husband, Harris, and their child, Sam. She was an only child and has distanced relationships with her parents, whom she talks to only intermittently. The narrator is a writer and a visual artist. She doesn’t “go into the tedious specifics of what [she does]” but does explain that she “had success in several mediums at a young age” and has been “at a crucial turning point” in her work ever since (6). She has a studio in the garage of her home and spends most of her time there. While she enjoys her private creative sessions, she’s constantly compartmentalizing her creative life from her home and family life. This is one of the main reasons that she feels stifled and trapped in her marriage. She believes that she and Harris have “a mutual and steadfast devotion” (13) to each other yet also admits that she has never fully revealed her true self to her husband. The only time she really feels like herself is when she spends time or talks on the phone with her best friend, Jordi. When she plans her cross-country drive to New York, she hopes the experience will help her get in touch with and claim who she really is.
The narrator’s unexpected stay in Monrovia, California, prompts her sexual reawakening and compels her toward self-discovery. She impulsively decides to spend the entire two-and-a-half weeks away holed up in a motel room in a small town only 30 minutes from home. While there, she humors parts of herself that she’s accustomed to quieting at home with Harris and Sam. She spends the entire $20,000 the whiskey company paid her for a sentence she wrote on redecorating her motel room. She then entertains a nonsexual romantic relationship with a younger man named Davey Boutrous. She falls in love with him and realizes that she’s trapped in her real life. Monrovia lets her be who she really wants to be.
The narrator evolves throughout the novel as a result of her sexual and artistic experimentations. Her relationships with characters including Davey, Audra, and Kris particularly compel her to change. She and Harris eventually open their marriage and in turn welcome newness, adventure, and surprise into their relationship. In addition, the narrator confronts her trauma over Sam’s complicated birth via a meeting with a pop star named Arkanda, who had a similar experience. This emotional encounter helps the narrator get back in touch with her creative self and invest in a new writing project. In these ways, she claims autonomy over her life, her body, and her artwork, pushing the boundaries of convention and female experience.
A primary character, the dynamic Davey Boutrous meets the narrator on her first day in Monrovia. She initially thinks he’s interested in spending time with her because he’s bored by his mundane existence, his unfulfilling job at Hertz, and his dull marriage to his wife Claire. However, Davey knows that the narrator is a minor celebrity and admires her work. He therefore orchestrated their meeting. During the narrator’s time in Monrovia, the two develop an intimate but nonsexual relationship. He falls in love with her but won’t articulate his feelings and refuses to have sex with her. He doesn’t want to betray his wife, Claire, and fears disrupting their marital arrangement and future. Thus, he’s a sensitive and emotionally complex character. For these reasons, the narrator is drawn to him. In addition, Davey can express himself in ways the narrator isn’t accustomed to in her other intimate relationships with men. In particular, Davey uses dance to convey his experiences and feelings in new ways. Watching him dance and dancing with him helps the narrator activate once-dormant parts of herself. Davey therefore helps her develop a new intimate and artistic mode of communicating.
Physically, Davey is an ordinary young man in his twenties. When the narrator first encounters him at the Monrovia gas station, she says that he has “a Huckleberry Finn/Gilbert Blythe look that [she] used to flip out over as a teenager” (31). He has “closely cropped hair and a downy little mustache” (31) that make him initially appear silly and childish. However, these facets of his appearance endear him to the narrator. Her sexual attraction to him is particularly strong when she sees his bare chest on a hike one day and when she sees him dancing in Room 321.
Davey’s character ultimately ushers the narrator toward personal and sexual freedom. She and Davey never have sex and don’t end up in a relationship. However, they share a profound emotional connection that helps her understand her need for newness, excitement, and inventive iterations of intimate connection. Ultimately, she makes peace with what she and Davey shared when she sees him perform in New York at the novel’s end. The performance lets her see Davey as his own person outside the context of their relationship for the first time, and she better understands his impact on her and his own autonomous way of being.
A secondary character, Harris is the narrator’s husband and Sam’s father. Harris loves the narrator but isn’t an emotive or a spontaneous person like his wife. The two share a formality that the narrator believes stems from the particular way that Harris moves through the world. She has done everything in her power to shield him from the most raw and idiosyncratic parts of herself. She loves her husband but she knows that she can’t fully be who she is in the context of their marriage. Rather, they work best together when they’re channeling their shared energies toward dire circumstances. They do well in emergencies and confront issues like Sam’s traumatic birth or the dog’s hair debacle with determination and resilience.
Throughout most of the novel, the narrator regards Harris as an obstacle to her self-discovery journey and her self-actualization. However, she’s reluctant to give up on their marriage even when she falls in love with Davey. She believes that she wants and needs Harris in her life because he grants her the illusion of stability, even if it threatens to suffocate her. Her outlook on Harris and their relationship changes once they open their marriage and start to date other people. This new arrangement grants them both new realms of experience and allows them to relate to each other in a more friendly, sustainable way.
A secondary character, Jordi is the narrator’s best friend and therefore acts as her archetypal guide throughout the novel. The narrator is “always [her]self with Jordi” (14) and therefore feels free and at ease when they spend time together or talk on the phone. They have a standing weekly get-together at Jordi’s sculpting studio, where they meet up to eat junk food and talk about life. Although Jordi is happily married to a woman named Mel, she doesn’t judge the narrator’s marital difficulties or cravings for sexual newness. Rather, Jordi is gracious, forgiving, and open-minded. She’s always there for the narrator and withholds judgment when the narrator shares intimate details of her life. However, Jordi never lies to the narrator. She doesn’t sanction her decisions, actions, or behaviors if she thinks the narrator is being rash. The narrator therefore trusts Jordi more than anyone else and can always rely on Jordi to be honest with her. Jordi supports and guides her throughout the novel. Jordi’s character reveals the importance of female friendship in a woman’s life. Jordi becomes a necessary constant in the narrator’s world, trumping the role of the husband as the narrator’s support system.
A minor, static character, Arkanda is a famous pop star with whom the narrator is desperate to secure a meeting. Arkanda’s people contact the narrator some time before the narrative present to arrange a conversation between Arkanda and the narrator. The narrator has no idea why Arkanda would “want to work with [her]” but hopes that if they were to collaborate on something they could “spend time together” and “make a shared world—an album, the lyrics, the videos, the art direction—a total creative mind meld that then entered the culture at a scale” that the narrator could never achieve on her own (17). The narrator therefore reveres Arkanda because of her fame and popularity. She sees their potential collaboration as a gateway to her own creative success and artistic future. However, after a litany of cancellations from Arkanda’s people, the narrator ultimately discovers that Arkanda only wants to meet with her to discuss FMH. She experienced it when she gave birth to her child Smith and wants to talk about it with the narrator. Their meeting in Chapter 28 compels the narrator to confront her trauma. Arkanda thus ushers the narrator toward change. Indeed, sharing her vulnerable experience with Arkanda grants the narrator clarity and healing, helping her start a new creative project.



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