Damon is shocked when he learns that his father is not dead but was absent because he was incarcerated for murder. Ralf had been caught on CCTV with Daisy Barber’s body and confessed to the crime. He had also been questioned about Callum’s death but was not charged. Damon begins to think that Ralf killed Damon’s mother and the infant he has been seeing as well.

Damon talks to his hallucinations. He tells them that he’s sorry for what his father did. Callum only responds with “Oodis.”

Damon gets a text from Melissa. She’s angry because Damon missed his appointment at the fertility clinic. He gets in the car to drive to Melissa’s when he is attacked from behind. He realizes that it’s the same man who attacked him weeks earlier in the parking garage.

Damon fights off his attacker and manages to throw the man out of the car. In his rear-view mirror, he sees the man standing up. Damon is overcome with anger, puts the car in reverse, and runs the man over. The man is dead.

Damon pulls the man’s body into a dumpster and covers it with trash. He knows that the trash will be collected the next day. He doesn’t see any CCTV cameras in the alley, so he assumes that he has gotten away with the murder.

Three days later, Damon goes to Helena’s house. He is surprised to see a young woman leaving as he arrives.

Damon tells Helena that he received his case notes from his time in foster care but that they were largely redacted. He tells her that he has learned that his father killed Daisy Barber. Helena says that she felt it was better not to tell Damon the truth when he was a child because he was already suffering from grief after his mother died. Helena says that she can’t tell him who the infant he has seen in his visions is. Damon asks when his father died, and Helena admits that his father isn’t dead: He’s out on parole after serving his sentence for murdering Daisy.

After Damon leaves, Helena thinks about the day he arrived. She had initially refused to take him in because it would have blurred the lines between her personal life and her professional life as a foster parent. However, she was eventually talked into taking him in.

Helena had tried to dissuade Damon from tracking down his father. She reminded him that all he shares with his father is DNA. She worries that “the ill wind she’s harnessed for so many years is threatening to develop into a storm” (169). She feels herself getting a headache and knows that it heralds another stroke.

Damon goes to the hardware store in Basingstoke where his father works. He sees his father in the paint aisle. He recognizes him because they look so similar, except that his father has a large beard. Damon knocks over a jar of paint, spilling it on the floor. When his father looks up, he says, “Sorry, Dad.”

Laura is frustrated because she hasn’t heard from her accomplice, Garry, in six days. She goes to his apartment and breaks in. She notices that his cell phone is still in the apartment. She uses an app on his phone to locate his car and sees that it’s parked near Damon’s apartment building.

Damon tells his father that he keeps seeing the people his father killed. In anger, Damon knocks over another can of paint. As Ralf comes closer, Damon sees that his father has his name and another name starting in “B-O” on his knuckles. He is surprised to see that his father cared so much for him.

Damon tells his father that he has been hallucinating dead people since his own near-death experience. He finds himself “consumed with rage” (180). Ralf tells Damon to leave. Then, the manager arrives and tells Damon that he has to leave the store, which he does.

Damon takes the train back to London. He decides to spend the night at Helena’s house rather than continuing on to Northampton. While on the London Underground, he sees that he has a voicemail from Adrienne. She asks if he knows why Melissa has seemed upset recently. Damon thinks about how he was forced to admit to himself that Adrienne is a better match for Melissa than he ever was. He resolves to focus on the future rather than the past and to be a better friend to Melissa.

Damon arrives at Helena’s house. She’s not there, but she has left a series of cassette tapes labeled with his name out for him. Along with the tapes is a letter to Helena from someone named Dr. Hugo Dahl regarding a referral to a Dr. Fernandez-Jones.

Damon doesn’t recognize the names of the doctors. He sits down and listens to the tapes. He realizes that they’re recordings of therapy sessions he had with Dr. Dahl when he was 12.

On the recordings, Damon hears himself tell the doctor that he went to stay with his father and grandfather following his mother’s death. Damon is surprised to hear this because he has no memory of staying with them. He begins to cry while hearing himself as a child insist that his mother will one day come home from the hospital.

Damon continues to listen to the recordings. He hears himself tell the doctor how he takes care of his mother when she isn’t well. He says that he doesn’t like his father because his father left him behind. He doesn’t like his mother’s boyfriend “because he took Mum away” (192).

On the tape, the psychoanalyst asks Damon why he stabbed his mother’s boyfriend. Young Damon explains that he did it in retaliation after the boyfriend punched him. After the boyfriend was arrested, “Maud” had come to visit his mother. The psychoanalyst explains to Damon that Maud is not a real person, but rather the name that his mother has given to her depression; “Maud” is short for “maudlin.”

Damon is shocked. He realizes that perhaps he has been having hallucinations since he was a child.

On the tape, the psychoanalyst asks young Damon about what happened to his brother. Damon is shocked because he doesn’t remember having a brother. Then, he realizes that his brother must be the infant he has seen with his mother in his visions. The psychoanalyst tells Damon that his brother, Bobby, is thought to have died of sudden infant death syndrome. In the next taped session, Dahl asks Damon about his friendship with Daisy. Young Damon refuses to talk about her. Then, there’s a scream, and the tape ends.

Damon searches online for Dr. Dahl and learns that he died in 2017. Overwhelmed, Damon falls asleep.

The next morning, Laura goes to Damon’s apartment building. That morning, she realized from where she recognizes Damon’s family name, Lister. She feels it is important not to let Damon “get away.”

Laura finds Garry’s car near Damon’s apartment building and sees that the keys are inside the car. She uses an app on Garry’s phone to open the car door and notices that there’s a dashboard camera mounted in the car. She watches the video. She is shocked to see in the recording that Damon ran Garry over and threw his body in the nearby dumpster.

Melissa reflects on her relationship with Damon. She had told him that she wanted to put off having a child until she finished qualifying as a paramedic. Soon after, they separated, and she met Adrienne at work. She threw herself into starting a family with Adrienne.

Damon visits Melissa at work. She is struck by how pale and skinny he appears. He tells her that he has completed his sperm donations at the fertility clinic. He also tells her that he has discovered that the dead girl he saw last time he died was Daisy Barber and that his father was convicted for her murder. He says that he has found his father. Damon says that he thinks there’s still more to remember and that he wants Melissa’s help accessing the memories.

Melissa reacts angrily to Damon’s appeal for her help in killing and reviving him again. He apologizes for the threats he made last time; he explains that he was desperate. He tells her that if she helps him again, he will go to a psychiatric hospital afterward. She tells him to talk to his father again to try to find answers. If his father won’t help him, then she will agree to help him.

Damon follows his father home from work and confronts him again. He tells Ralf that he needs to know what he did to Callum and Bobby. Ralf says that he didn’t hurt Bobby and is noncommittal about his hand in Callum’s death. He tells Damon to leave.

Damon continues to angrily argue with Ralf. Ralf says that he didn’t hurt Bobbi, Damon’s mother. Damon asks if his mother died by suicide “because she knew what [he]’d done to those kids” (218). Ralf looks away. Damon begins viciously attacking his father. Damon intends to kill his father when he feels something heavy hit his head.

Melissa returns home from work to find Adrienne watching something on the iPad. She is upset. Melissa asks, “Has someone died?” (221), and Adrienne replies, “Damon, apparently […] more than once” (221).

Ralf screams at his mother, Damon’s grandmother, to stop attacking Damon. Ralf tells Damon to leave. His grandmother is stunned to see her grandson. She hits him again with her shovel as he leaves and tells him to get out. Ralf stands in the doorway and tells Damon that if he ever returns, “what [he] did to all those kids will be nothing compared to what [he]’ll do to [Damon]” (224).

Adrienne has found the video that Melissa made of Damon explaining his intentions before the last time she killed him. She is furious that Melissa agreed to kill and revive Damon rather than insisting that he get psychiatric help. She says that had Damon died, Melissa would have been arrested, and their chance at starting a family would be over.

Adrienne says that she’s tired of Damon taking priority in Melissa’s life. She says that Melissa needs to cut off all contact with Damon and then storms out.