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Content Warning: This section of the guide includes discussion of death, physical abuse, emotional abuse, sexual violence, and gender discrimination.
Rivera Garza spends the winter holiday season of 2019 in Houston with her parents. She tells them that she is looking into reopening Liliana’s case while walking the Harrisburg Trail near her home one day. They give her their support. For the first time, on New Year’s Eve, they also set Liliana’s photo on the table as they celebrate: “We talked about her in complete sentences for the first time in ages” (115).
Rivera Garza and her husband go to Liliana’s old apartment, Mimosas 658, in January 2020. She also hires an attorney to manage the search for her sister’s file. She recollects finding the apartment for Liliana; Rivera Garza’s colleague and his family lived above it, so she believed that her sister was safe there. Now, she presses the buzzer and asks if she can enter the building, which belongs to a construction company; the owner eventually returns to let her into the apartment where Liliana hosted her friends from university regularly. Rivera Garza asks the owner if he knows what happened here. He denies it, though his secretary earlier said she knew.
Rivera Garza remarks that her sister must have been happy at UAM as she walks the campus that her sister attended. She sees Liliana in the clusters of students who move through the architecture building and comments to her husband that the space would have intimidated Ángel: “Anyone obsessed with control would be scared by a campus as open as this” (126). She decides to work with the university’s Office of Gender Equality to establish a campus commemoration for Liliana and any other young women who experienced or died due to gendered violence.
Liliana’s friend Laura Rosales remembers the way Liliana cared deeply about her friends and her education. The two voted together for the first time in 1988, hoping that the leftist candidate they supported would bring change to Mexico. They protested in the streets together when electoral fraud derailed their hopes. Another friend, Raúl Espino Madrigal, remarks that he and Liliana became good friends at university even though they had attended the same middle school. They took classes together; he fell in love with her, and their friendship blossomed.
Laura remembers Liliana visiting Ángel to borrow a car on a trip back to Toluca, but Laura did not meet him. Later, she recognized the same car at the university.
Ana Ocadiz, another friend, remembers sharing frequent laughter with Liliana: “I see them [the younger Ana and Liliana], motionless, marveling at each other, knowing the future awaits them. Liliana was the name I gave to my freedom” (139).
Laura recalls Liliana coming to class with an injury once; when she asked what happened, Liliana made light of Ángel. She had told Laura earlier about his jealousy, so Laura was concerned. Liliana later insinuated that Ángel sexually assaulted her and apologized after. She also confided in Laura that Ángel would not let her break up with him, physically grabbing her by the arm to demonstrate his possessiveness.
Another friend, Manolo Casillas Espinal, remembers falling in love with Liliana after their fourth quarter at university. He describes her as honest and gregarious. The two belonged to a study group that often met at Mimosas 658, her apartment. Ángel López, another classmate, remembers finding Liliana attractive, too, but Manolo was closer to her. Ángel also recalls the deepening friendship between Ana and Liliana.
Norma Xavier Quintana remembers Liliana telling her she and Ana that planned to study in England after graduation: “That was their plan, she said, as if it were no big deal. As if we could just pack our things and leave everything behind. I could not help but feel a bit envious” (145). Their friendship deepened when Liliana supported Norma after her boyfriend left her. She hugged her and gave her a slip of paper with a line of poetry written on it: “In the midst of winter I found there was, within me, an invincible summer” (146).
Raúl remembers when Liliana invited him to spend the night at her apartment; he was grateful to be with her, even though she was firm about not having sex. They spent the evening talking and cuddling, but later she acted distant. These “sporadic peaks of affection and closeness” were typical of their relationship (150).
Ana remembers how much Liliana loved her friends and life. She also loved Ángel. Ana describes her ability to love intensely as a “superpower” and a flaw.
Liliana’s friend Leticia Hernández Garza remembers Ángel’s jealousy in high school. He once screamed at Liliana when a male friend from swimming gave her a gift. She remembers him slapping Liliana for the first time after they had been together for a year. They often broke up and rekindled their relationship: “At first Liliana saw this as a game, something harmless, a sign of his vehemence, but when she left for university, he became more violent. Liliana met people he was not able to supervise. Her world was expanding, while his was turning upside down” (157).
Raúl remembers a time when Liliana was almost late for a trip to the cinema because Ángel turned up at her apartment and refused to leave, though she never named him. While repeatedly explaining that Ángel was part of her past, Liliana also revealed that Ángel carried a gun—a fact confirmed by friend Othón Santon Álvarez. Norma remembers Ángel maintaining that he was Liliana’s boyfriend even though she was dating Manolo. Ángel Lopez describes the other Ángel as strange, lurking outside of her social circle in Mexico City.
Friend Leonardo Jasso recollects encountering Ángel while accompanying Liliana to her apartment. The encounter left Jasso with “a heavy vibe” (163). He notes, “That day I understood that Liliana was not free” (163). Liliana’s close friend Ana remembers driving around with Ángel while he dropped off forged vehicle documentation. Her encounters with him left Ana feeling frightened; she also remembers his threatening appearance. Cousin Emilio Hernández Garza recalls a time in Toluca when he saw Ángel shove Liliana: “I ran to them, hit him hard and he fell. He tried to fight back, but I was much bigger. Liliana begged me not to hit him because he was her boyfriend” (165). Ana remembers when Liliana bought a sparrow at the Azcapotzalco market with the intention of releasing it in a local park: “Freedom, she reminded me all the time, was the most important possession in life” (166). However, when they opened the bag to release the bird, it was dead. Liliana quietly commented that the bird was about to be free as they left the park broken-heartedly.
Rivera Garza’s emphasis on memory centers Managing Lifelong Grief by Confronting Trauma. The memoir is not only Rivera Garza’s means of processing her grief by recalling her lost sister; rather, her family and Liliana’s friends also reflect on their complex relationships with her, her complex and dangerous relationship with Ángel, and her individuality. The process proves healing, as evidenced by the family’s 2019 New Year’s Eve celebration. For the first time in nearly 30 years, the family integrates Liliana’s memory into their observation of the holiday, placing Liliana’s photo on the table and talking about her openly. Similarly, walking the campus that Liliana attended and visiting the apartment where she died bring Rivera Garza closer to her sister, uniting past and present. Interviews with friends provide unique insight into Liliana’s life and allow Rivera Garza to connect with parts of her sister’s life to which she was not privy. The implication is that while confronting grief can be painful, it also has its rewards, as openness allows lost loved ones to live on in a way that denial or repression does not.
The memoir suggests that this is particularly true when the circumstances surrounding a loved one’s death are unjust, as seeking justice can prove healing in and of itself. The New Year’s celebration has symbolic resonance in this respect as well, marking the birth of Rivera Garza’s activism, as it is around this time that she tells her parents that she is working to reopen Liliana’s case. She uses her skills as a trained historian to conduct oral histories and compares them to Liliana’s archive to reconstruct her life in Mexico City as a university student. The application of her professional training is significant: Liliana was an “ordinary” young woman who would not traditionally be an object of archival study, but Rivera Garza treats her life as seriously as she would any more conventional historical subject. This itself serves as a subtle form of activism, as it insists on Liliana’s value—a form of Bearing Witness as Activism.
A consistent theme emerges through Rivera Garza’s interviews: Liliana was both free and trapped. The sparrow story that Ana Ocadiz recounts symbolizes and foreshadows Liliana’s circumstances. Liliana bought the bird in a market with the intention of freeing it. She looked after the bird all day until they could go to a park to release it, but the sparrow died just on the cusp of freedom. Liliana, too, lost her life just as she sought final liberation from Ángel’s violence: She valued her freedom above all (details such as Laura Rosales’s memories of voting and protesting together underscore this characterization, as does Ana’s recollection of their uninhibited laughter), yet she could not liberate herself from Ángel’s abuse any more than she could free the bird.
The memoir continues to stress, however, that this was a “failure” not on Liliana’s part but on society’s, developing the theme of Gendered Violence and Systemic Injustice as Intertwined. The danger that Ángel posed was clear: Liliana’s friends remember seeing his specter on campus and near her apartment in Mexico City, infringing on the liberation she valued and craved. Cousin Emilio Hernández Garza witnessed his physical abuse, and Liliana told Laura about his violence when she attended class visibly injured. Yet there were few resources to which Liliana could turn at the time. Intimate partner violence was not a topic of major public concern, and society was rife with victim blaming. Under these circumstances, Liliana could do relatively little except persevere, as a few lines of poetry she gave to a friend (and from which the book takes its title) make clear: “In the midst of winter I found there was, within me, an invincible summer” (146). These lines encourage readers to see Liliana as a compassionate and courageous young woman who refused to allow Ángel’s violence to define her life. While the memoir is partly an exploration of gendered violence and an indictment of the forces that perpetuate it, it is careful to include details like this so as not to reduce Liliana to the circumstances of her death and thus dishonor her life.



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