The First Time I Saw Him

Laura Dave

51 pages 1-hour read

Laura Dave

The First Time I Saw Him

Fiction | Novel | Adult | Published in 2026

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Symbols & Motifs

Content Warning: This section of the guide includes discussion of death.

Marine Compass

The marine compass is a major symbol of purpose and, more specifically, Finding Purpose in Family. It first appears in Part 1, Chapter 6, when Hannah opens Owen’s flash drive and sees the image over the drive’s home page. Later, in Part 3, Chapter 25, Hannah reflects on the meaning of the compass, which drives its symbolic purpose: “When the boat turns, the compass continues to point at magnetic north, and the course is shown in reference to that line […] True north, holding, even when everything else is unsteady. When everything is shifting away from what you can control” (165-66). The fact that the compass anchors all the photo albums together is Owen’s way of saying that he remains anchored to Hannah as his purpose in life. He wants to return to her, so everything he does is directed toward that purpose. Similarly, Hannah views Bailey as her true north; everything she does is directed toward guaranteeing her safety. These purposes help to steady the characters as they venture deeper into Organization territory.

Èze

The town of Èze is a symbolic location, representing death, rebirth, and redemption. Èze is first introduced in Part 3, Chapter 23, as the place where Frank plans to retire and hold his upcoming birthday party. This frames Èze as the antagonist’s lair, the place of greatest danger for the protagonists, which they must navigate to resolve the conflict. However, as the novel goes on, Èze’s symbolic function evolves, becoming the place Nicholas must visit to atone for his sins and forgive himself.


The first time Nicholas visits Èze in Part 3, Chapter 30, Frank takes him along the town’s famous Nietzsche Path and invokes German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche’s assertion that anything done for love transcends morality. This resonates with Nicholas’s dangerous decision to venture into Organization territory for the sake of Hannah and Bailey, whom he loves. As Nicholas and Hannah enter Èze in Part 3, Chapter 32, Nicholas recalls Èze’s town motto: “In death, I am reborn” (197). He says this fully knowing that he will soon enter a state of self-exile in order to guarantee Owen, Hannah, and Bailey’s freedom. Similarly, when he parts ways with Frank at the end of the novel, Nicholas justifies his decision by noting that he is already considered dead. In Èze, Nicholas chooses to save not himself but those he loves so that he can atone for failing Kate in the past, asymbolic “death” that becomes a form of rebirth.

Frank’s Favor

Frank’s favor is a symbol of friendship, particularly the sympathy that Frank feels for Nicholas as an extension of his family. Frank offers Nicholas any favor he asks for in Part 3, Chapter 24, to console him over the loss of Kate and to thank Nicholas for bearing the legal burden of Owen’s exposé on the Organization. Nicholas finally chooses to invoke this favor in Part 3, Chapter 40, and this action gives the favor its symbolic meaning. It suggests that Nicholas trusts in his friendship with Frank enough to stake his association with Owen on it. By revealing that he is working with Owen to subvert Quinn and Teddy’s plans, he appeals to Frank’s goodwill and the years they have spent as close friends. While Frank remains loyal to his family, the favor functions as an extension of his loyalty, which is why Frank stresses that Nicholas can ask “[a]nything you ever need from me. Any favor. It’s yours” (161). Nicholas holds him to that promise, using the favor to remind Frank of what he has given up for him. The fact that Frank honors his favor underscores that he honors their friendship and provides a counterweight to the overall portrayal of Dealing with the Consequences of the Past, showing that shared history can be a force for good.

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