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The narrative moves back in time to Andrew’s first appointment with Dr. Cain, which took place during the summer before seventh grade. He feels distracted and very uncomfortable because a crumb on her desk makes one of her picture frames crooked, as illustrated by the seventh Anxiety File, “What Looking at That Crooked Frame Felt Like to Me.” Andrew feels embarrassed when Dr. Cain notices him staring at the picture frame, but she assures him, “You can’t do anything ‘wrong.’ There are no bad answers. I’m not testing you or anything” (92). He tells her about the tension he feels, his fear of germs, his panic attacks, and his relentless worry that he will have another panic attack. His first panic attack was triggered when G forgot who he was and locked him out of his old room, and he felt as though he was trapped in a nightmare.
Andrew is stunned when Dr. Cain correctly infers that he sometimes does things like tapping because he feels like disaster will strike if he doesn’t, and he tears up when she assures him that she’s helped many people with his conditions. When the doctor asks to hear more about his life, Andrew shares that his parents divorced five years ago and that this was for the best because his father was unkind to him and his mother, that he mows lawns after school to make money, and that G had to move in with him and Susan because of her Alzheimer’s. At the end of their first session, Dr. Cain gives Andrew a Moleskine notebook and encourages him to write and draw about his feelings. A few days later, he starts drawing the Anxiety Files. Susan could only afford for Andrew to meet with Dr. Cain three times, and she was nearly in tears when she had to admit this to the therapist.
The eighth Anxiety File poses the question “Why Do I Tap Stuff?” Tense Kid explains that a terrible disaster will strike if he doesn’t. When his mother asks him if he’s finished his homework, he answers, “Can’t. Saving us all” (105).
Jonesy and Andrew are in the same social studies class. She’s aghast to see her friend’s bruised face and to hear that Gene tore Andrew’s new shirt. Andrew explains what happened in a note because their classmates are eavesdropping on their conversation. Principal Espinosa calls Andrew out of class, instructs Gene to buy Andrew an exact replacement of the shirt he tore, and tells the bully to apologize. The apology is insincere, but Andrew doesn’t press the issue because he doesn’t want the bully to be even angrier toward him. When Andrew returns to class, his classmates’ attention makes him nervous and he wishes that he could “crawl under ten or twelve heavy blankets and go to sleep” (114). Jonesy makes Andrew laugh by pulling funny faces, and his best friend’s antics help his metaphorical popcorn kernel relax “a tiny bit” (114).
At lunch, Jonesy shares that she wants to tell her father that she’s only interested in playing basketball for fun and doesn’t want to pursue a career as a professional athlete. However, she’s afraid that he’ll be crushed because of his great love for the sport. Andrew offers to talk to her father because he’s on good terms with the man and knows how to make him laugh. Two girls from the basketball team, Kylee and Melissa, invite Jonesy and Andrew to sit with them. Andrew declines, and Jonesy once again urges him to give people a chance to befriend him. Mika calls Jonesy’s cell phone and asks to speak to Andrew, which immediately raises his anxiety level. She tells him, “I’m sorry to bother you, Andrew, but…(frantic sigh)…I can’t find your grandma, honey” (124).
Feeling unsteady and overwhelmed, Andrew goes outside to the school’s patio. Mika explains that the police are on their way, and Andrew suggests that G might have gone to one of her favorite places, like a local donut shop or the apartment complex’s pond. Mika attempts to reassure the anxious boy, “Let us handle this. I’ll call the front office now, and I’ll let Jonesy and the school know the very second we find her. Try to stay calm” (127). Andrew doesn’t understand why people speak as though he’s able to flip a switch and magically become calm. He feels as if he is on the verge of a panic attack.
The narrative shifts back in time. Since moving in with her daughter and grandson, G has wandered off a few times, including at night. Andrew recalls how stressed he and Susan were during these disappearances, but G always seems happy when they find her. Dr. Cain once asked Andrew what the most difficult part of living with his grandmother is, and he opened up about the guilt he carries for feeling deeply annoyed and inconvenienced by someone he loves. He hates not having his own room or any privacy, and G sometimes misplaces things and accuses him of taking them. Andrew is worried that Dr. Cain will think he’s a “World Class Horrible Jerk” for complaining, but instead the therapist expresses compassion for the struggle of caring for someone with Alzheimer’s and tells him that “sometimes being human can be incredibly hard” (137).
The ninth Anxiety File is titled “Wishlist for My Overreactive Brain” and anthropomorphizes Tense Kid’s brain. Tense Kid puts his brain on a bookshelf to give it a little break, gives it a massage, and helps it take up meditation.
The narrative returns to Andrew’s present. Jonesy tries to comfort her friend by telling him that her mother will find G and by encouraging him to do some box breathing. The breathing exercise helps a little, but Andrew feels embarrassed and is sarcastic toward Kylee when she asks if he’s all right. When Jonesy calls out his rudeness, Andrew blames his anger on Mika: “Your mom can’t keep her eye on one old lady? How hard is that??” (146). On the verge of tears, Jonesy hurries back into the cafeteria. As the guilt-stricken Andrew follows her inside, Kendrick uses baking soda to launch a ketchup bottle. Some of the condiment gets in Andrew’s hair, which he finds repulsive.
Andrew washes the ketchup out of his hair and inspects his reflection in the bathroom mirror. His black eye is swollen shut, but his clothes are surprisingly ketchup-free. Soggy and smelling “like Ronald McDonald’s cologne” (153), Andrew returns to the nurse’s office. He opens up to Nurse Finnegan about G and her Alzheimer’s. She shares her secret stash of Flamin’ Hot Cheetos with him and finishes mending his new shirt. The repair far exceeds his expectations, and he gratefully puts it back on.
In the 10th Anxiety File, Andrew morosely poses the question, “What Will Happen Now That I’ve Ruined My Friendship with J?” He draws himself being shunned by everyone before digging “a deep hole and [living] in there, henceforth” and eventually perishing “alone and friendless in an alley somewhere” (152).
The narrative moves back in time to Andrew’s third session with Dr. Cain. The therapist helps him explore the emotions that trigger his tapping, such as anxiety, loss of control, and his fear of his own anger. She asks, “Do you think you’re more scared of losing control and being angry…or of being angry like your dad?” (163). The question troubles him because he sees many of his estranged father’s physical and personality traits in himself, such as his height and his loathing of germs and messes. His father lives on the West Coast and has the financial means to help Susan and their son but doesn’t give them any assistance.
Dr. Cain gives Andrew a visualization exercise to try when he feels overwhelmed. She directs him to picture himself in his “happiest place on earth” (167). Andrew closes his eyes and imagines himself with Jonesy, Susan, and Jonesy’s parents in his best friend’s backyard on a summer day. Dr. Cain is excited about his progress and tells him that they can continue to explore coping techniques together. However, this is Andrew’s final meeting with the therapist because his mother cannot afford more sessions. He hopes that he’ll be able to see Dr. Cain again if Susan’s new job goes well.
The 11th Anxiety File is titled “Overwhelmed” and shows Tense Kid surrounded by thought bubbles containing his worries about G and Gene.
In the novel’s second section, G goes missing, increasing Andrew’s need for friendship and a strong support system. In Chapter 11, Jonesy tries to give the main character care and encouragement after he receives the bad news, but he takes his anger and embarrassment out on her and her teammates. Andrew’s hurtful words add to the story’s conflict and realism by showing how his high anxiety sometimes negatively impacts his relationships: “‘You’re being mean.’ I’m not myself. She’s right. I’ll admit that. I’m half me and half anger” (146). Nurse Finnegan also plays an important role in the theme of support networks in this section by offering the protagonist a listening ear and coming to the rescue with her sewing abilities. In Chapter 12, she becomes the first adult in the school whom Andrew tells about G’s Alzheimer’s, which makes his great trust in the nurse and his need for support apparent. As Andrew grapples with his anxiety about his missing grandmother, he both reaches out for help and pushes his best friend away.
The flashbacks with Dr. Cain provide new insights into Andrew’s journey toward self-acceptance and resilience as well as the adversity that complicates his progress. Chapter 12.5 reveals a key connection between the boy’s estranged father and the theme: “I’m a clean freak too, and I’m tall and skinny like him and I’m fussy and a neat freak and I’m angry. Fastidious Andrew. He probably tapped and reclosed doors like me too, for all I know and it’s not fair!” (165). This revelation indicates that Andrew struggles to accept himself because the symptoms of his anxiety and OCD resemble his angry, hurtful father’s habits. Thus, the protagonist fears that his mental health conditions are evidence that he will “turn into him” (165). Although Andrew uses the tools Dr. Cain gives him to tap into his resilience and cope with challenges, factors beyond his control complicate his ability to make progress with his health: “Not to be a total bummer, but that was our last visit. Maybe I can see her more if my mom’s new job works out. We’ll see” (170). The adversity the protagonist faces reflects the harsh realities of the American health care system, where people’s options are limited by their financial situations.
Harrell uses the Anxiety Files and popcorn to illustrate Andrew’s mental health challenges and coping mechanisms as his day descends further into chaos. The boy’s comics, which serve as a motif of The Role of Humor and Art in Coping with Mental Health Challenges, find the comedy in things that frighten or frustrate him. For example, the 11th Anxiety File is titled “Overwhelmed” and shows Tense Kid surrounded by thought bubbles containing anxious thoughts, including the rhyme “Gene the Mean is keen to kick my spleen” (171). The symbol of popcorn also grants important information about the main character’s mental health. In Chapter 8, the author uses the symbol to show how Jonesy’s friendship supports Andrew’s well-being: “Then she scrunches her nose up really hard and it gets another laugh. My kernel in oil breathes just a tiny bit easier for a few seconds” (114). Harrell also uses the symbol to build suspense, as shown when Mika asks to speak to Andrew in Chapter 9: “My inner popcorn kernel’s oil temperature bumps up a degree” (124). The reference to the Kernel Scare raises the mood’s tension, hinting that something is wrong even before Mika reveals that G is missing.



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