If He Had Been with Me

Laura Nowlin

If He Had Been with Me

Laura Nowlin
56 pages1-hour read
Fiction
Novel
YA
Published in 2013

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Character List

Meet the key characters, with insights into their roles, motivations, and relationships—spoiler-free.

Major Characters

Autumn is an imaginative, somewhat quirky high school freshman who aspires to be a published author. She begins high school feeling isolated after drifting apart from her childhood best friend and the popular crowd. To establish her own identity, she begins wearing tiaras every day and forms a new clique that meets on a set of stairs called the "Steps to Nowhere." She experiences periods of clinical depression and relies heavily on her new social circle for emotional grounding.

Key Relationships

Childhood Best Friend of Phineas 'Finny' Smith

Romantic Interest of Jamie

Best Friend of Sasha

Daughter of Autumn's Mother

Daughter of Autumn's Father

Surrogate Daughter to Angelina

Finny is the son of a single mother and the next-door neighbor to the Davis family. He spends his early childhood as Autumn's closest companion before they separate in middle school over social differences. In high school, he plays soccer, drives a red sports car gifted by his absentee father, and dates a girl named Sylvie. Despite running with the popular crowd, he remains highly observant and quietly protective of Autumn from a distance.

Key Relationships

Protective Friend of Autumn Davis

Son of Angelina

Romantic Partner of Sylvie

Friend of Jack

Supporting Characters

Jamie is an eager and forward high school student who quickly becomes Autumn's first serious boyfriend. He brings his cousin Brooke and his friend Noah into Autumn's social circle, helping to form their core clique. Jamie is highly focused on traditional milestones, frequently discussing marriage, careers, and intimacy while they are still young teenagers. He pushes Autumn to abandon her writing ambitions in favor of a practical teaching career.

Key Relationships

Romantic Partner of Autumn Davis

Friend of Sasha

Cousin of Brooke

Friend of Noah

Sasha is Autumn's closest friend during high school. The two bond over feeling excluded from the popular crowd and decide to form their own clique on the fringes of the school courtyard. Sasha focuses heavily on dating and social dynamics, frequently discussing boys, taking quizzes in magazines, and maintaining an on-again, off-again relationship with her boyfriend Alex.

Key Relationships

Best Friend of Autumn Davis

Romantic Partner of Alex

Friend of Jamie

Angelina is Finny's mother and a middle school art teacher. She raises her son single-handedly following a brief affair with a man who initially denied paternity. She is an independent, pragmatic woman who serves as a secondary maternal presence for Autumn, particularly stepping in when Autumn's own mother struggles with severe depression. She warmly supports Autumn's quirks, including buying her new tiaras.

Key Relationships

Best Friend of Autumn's Mother

Supportive Neighbor to Autumn Davis

Sylvie is Finny's girlfriend throughout high school. She belongs to the popular crowd that Autumn purposefully avoids. Sylvie maintains a tense distance from Autumn, driven by the unacknowledged history between Finny and his former best friend. Her friend group occasionally clashes with Autumn's, most notably in a turf war over a lunchroom table.

Key Relationships

Romantic Partner of Phineas 'Finny' Smith

Social Rival of Autumn Davis

Autumn's mother is a woman who experiences periods of severe depression that occasionally require hospitalization. She leans heavily on her best friend, Angelina, for day-to-day support when her husband is away or her mental health declines. Despite her struggles, she tries to maintain family traditions like holiday dinners and firework viewings at the lake.

Key Relationships

Mother of Autumn Davis

Wife of Autumn's Father

Best Friend of Angelina

Autumn's father is a career-driven man who is frequently absent due to business trips. He is somewhat detached from his daughter's daily life, failing to notice her habit of wearing tiaras until months after she starts. His lack of presence and emotional distance creates significant tension in his marriage.

Key Relationships

Father of Autumn Davis

Husband of Autumn's Mother

Brooke is Jamie's cousin and one of the core members of Autumn's high school friend group. She brings her boyfriend Noah into the circle. Brooke navigates the complex social and romantic pressures of high school alongside Autumn, occasionally struggling with fidelity in her own relationship.

Key Relationships

Romantic Partner of Noah

Cousin of Jamie

Friend of Autumn Davis

Noah is Brooke's boyfriend and a steady presence in Autumn's social circle. He frequently hosts the friend group at his house for activities like building snow ramps for sledding. He is close friends with Jamie and generally easygoing.

Key Relationships

Romantic Partner of Brooke

Friend of Jamie

Friend of Autumn Davis

Alex is Sasha's boyfriend. Their relationship is characterized by frequent breakups and reconciliations. He is part of the larger social circle but primarily interacts with the group through his connection to Sasha.

Key Relationships

Romantic Partner of Sasha

Friend of Autumn Davis

Angie is a member of Autumn's core friend group. She begins dating a boy named Dave, and the two rapidly reach major life milestones together while still in high school. Her experiences provide a contrast to Autumn's slower-paced relationship with Jamie.

Key Relationships

Romantic Partner of Dave

Friend of Autumn Davis

Dave is Angie's boyfriend. He is vetted by the other boys in the group, including Jamie and Noah, who quickly decide he is a good match for Angie. He is supportive of Angie as they navigate serious life events together.

Key Relationships

Romantic Partner of Angie

Friend of Autumn Davis

Jack is one of Finny's close friends. He occasionally bridges the gap between Finny's social world and Autumn's, inviting her to watch horror movies and hanging out with both of them. He is fiercely protective of Finny's emotions.

Key Relationships

Acquaintance of Autumn Davis

Dr. Singh is the psychiatrist Autumn visits when she begins struggling with the winter blues and deep sadness. He evaluates her and prescribes antidepressants to help manage her mood disorder.

Key Relationships

Doctor to Autumn Davis

Mr. Laughegan is an honors English teacher whose class is shared by Autumn, Jamie, Sasha, Finny, and Sylvie. Autumn quickly bonds with him over their mutual appreciation for literature, prompting mild jealousy from Jamie.

Key Relationships

Teacher of Autumn Davis