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Content Warning: This section of the guide includes discussion of mental illness, death by suicide, antigay bias, sexual content, and cursing.
Ilya wakes from a recurring dream about his mother and reaches for Shane, but his side of the bed has been empty for two weeks. He forces himself up despite feeling tired and sore from last night’s loss, pushing away a nagging worry that he might be depressed like his mother was. He texts Shane, and they have a playful conversation that turns into sexting before Shane has to attend a team meeting.
In Los Angeles, Shane struggles to sleep due to the time difference. Hayden knocks on his door, scared after watching a horror movie, and they spend the evening watching a reality show and talking about family life—Hayden’s wife, Jackie, their four children, and whether Shane will ever be a father.
On game day in Ottawa, Ilya chats with his young neighbors before driving to the arena, stopping to buy coffee for himself and Luca. During the game against Columbus, Ilya scores early, but Ottawa loses four to two. In the locker room, a staffer shows Ilya a fan’s pumpkin carving of his portrait. Inspired, Ilya announces he’s hosting a Halloween party, resolving to be a better teammate.
In Los Angeles, Rose takes Shane shopping at designer boutiques, insisting on paying for everything. Paparazzi photograph them leaving. Over lunch, Rose asks about Shane’s relationship with Ilya. Shane admits he sometimes resents the “unfairness” of hiding and wishes he could “be open” (109). Rose urges him to do what makes him happy, pointing out that no one who already knows has been judgmental about their relationship. She suggests he create a backup plan in case they’re outed.
The next morning, Ilya FaceTimes Shane to tell him the Ottawa team is getting a puppy and to tease him about the paparazzi photos with Rose. Shane tells Ilya about Rose’s advice. Ilya admits that a “backup plan” might be a good idea, noting that Hayden has commented on the fact that he “look[s] at [Shane] with heart eyes (113). Deeply missing each other after weeks apart, they begin phone sex.
At a face-off in Montreal, three weeks since they last saw each other, Ilya and Shane flirt and make plans for after the game. Ilya scores to tie the game and blows Shane a kiss, earning a warning from the referee. Luca scores to put Ottawa ahead, but Shane ties it again. Later, a slap shot from Shane’s teammate J.J. hits Ilya’s knee. Shane checks on him, and they exchange coded flirtation.
After the game, Ilya learns via text that Shane has been edging himself in anticipation. When Ilya arrives at Shane’s house, they have immediate, rough sex, after which Ilya gently tends to Shane before they fall asleep spooning.
Shane wakes next to Ilya and they shower and make breakfast. They discuss the documentary about their rivalry; Ilya refuses to reveal what he said in his interviews, then grows serious, admitting he couldn’t say what he wanted to—that Shane is “everything” to him. Shane says the same.
Their morning is interrupted when Hayden calls asking them to babysit his four children while he takes his wife to the hospital for a sprained ankle. Ilya is delighted. At the Pike house, Ilya paints nails for the twins Ruby and Jade, their brother Arthur, and himself, explaining that boys can wear nail polish too. Ruby asks if Shane and Ilya are husbands, and the children stage an impromptu wedding ceremony, complete with vows and plastic rings. Both men become unexpectedly emotional.
Back at Shane’s house, Ilya carries him inside bridal-style. Shane admits the day felt like a glimpse of their future, and they talk about having children and dogs together someday. Shane notices Ilya’s badly bruised knee and ices it. When Ilya suggests more people might not care that they’re a couple, Shane dismisses him, and Ilya withdraws emotionally. Shane gently suggests Ilya might benefit from professional help, but Ilya becomes defensive and denies anything is wrong, though his hand trembles.
In Montreal’s locker room, J.J. tries to set Shane up with a handsome gay personal trainer. Shane declines, and J.J. expresses concern that Shane seems “wound too tight” (148). Hayden jokes about their fake wedding and confirms he’d want to be invited to their real one—and that he’d be Shane’s best man.
At his Halloween party, Ilya, dressed as a gladiator, feels lonely despite the crowd. After sharing a joint on his back deck with teammates, he feels overwhelmed by jokes that he’ll never settle down and retreats to his room alone. He finds a text from Shane telling him not to take off the costume.
Late that night, Shane arrives having driven from Montreal. They have rough sex, after which Ilya feels emotionally fragile, hugging Shane tightly. The next morning, Shane leaves early for practice. After watching his car drive away, Ilya breaks down crying. When he recovers, decides he needs “professional help” (161).
In November, Ilya has his first therapy session with Dr. Galina Molchalina, the only Russian-speaking psychologist in Ottawa. He admits he might be depressed. Over 40 minutes, he talks extensively about his mother, sharing fond memories and describing how she tried to hide her depression. He recounts finding her lifeless body when he was 12 and his father’s insistence that her death was accidental. He expresses anger at how “quickly” his father “moved on” and how “disgusted” he seemed by her illness (165).
Galina gives him time to process his emotions. Ilya feels exhausted but better afterward and schedules another appointment. Before leaving, he asks if there is something wrong with him. Galina cannot give him answers yet but reassures him that being there is an important step.
After the session, Ilya walks around Ottawa for hours, feeling raw and hollow. He wonders if therapy is useful at all but decides it might be worth pushing through the pain. He sits by a canal and looks at old photos of himself and Shane from years prior, impulsively sending one to Shane. They agree to watch the documentary together the next day.
Shane arrives at Ilya’s house, and they immediately start kissing. Ilya has prepared ingredients for a healthy dinner they can cook together, finding a recipe that fits Shane’s strict diet. Ilya lights a candle, creating a romantic atmosphere. Shane tells Ilya he loves him, and Ilya responds warmly.
They settle on the couch to watch the documentary. While watching, a clip appears of Shane’s devastating hit by Cliff Marlow. The footage shows Ilya’s terrified face as he crouches over Shane’s unconscious body, frantically waving for medical staff and refusing to leave Shane’s side. Shane realizes he never fully understood how scared Ilya had been. They kiss to stop watching the painful moment.
Later, Ilya’s phone buzzes with a picture of Hayden’s middle finger, a response to Ilya having purchased a FanMail video from him as a prank. Shane wakes up aroused from a dream about having sex with Ilya at center ice. When Ilya teases him about it, Shane confesses the dream. They joke about Ilya’s sexual past before Ilya gives Shane oral sex. Afterward, they eat breakfast together.
Shane receives an email from NHL Commissioner Roger Crowell requesting a meeting in New York. Shane panics, wondering if Crowell knows about his relationship with Ilya.
Shane meets with Commissioner Crowell at NHL headquarters in Manhattan. Crowell praises the Irina Foundation and asks about Shane’s camps, emphasizing their inclusivity. He says he has heard rumors that Shane is “homosexual,” but assures him he does not need to confirm it. Crowell says he appreciates how Shane handles himself, keeping his private life private and putting hockey first. He subtly discourages Shane from following Scott Hunter’s example of activism, claiming “too much talk about” diversity can be “distracting” (183) Crowell offers to help Shane plan a public coming out if he wants, but makes it clear the league would prefer he remain quiet. Shane leaves the meeting feeling disgusted and manipulated.
Shane immediately calls Ilya to tell him about the conversation. Ilya becomes angry on Shane’s behalf. Shane admits he was not planning to come out anyway, but the meeting made him feel “slimy.”
Days later, Ilya has another therapy session with Galina. She asks about his father. Ilya reveals he is “glad” his father is dead. He describes his father as a decorated police officer who hated Ilya’s mother and was disgusted by her illness. His father was only proud of his hockey career when Ilya won a gold medal for Russia, viewing anything less as an embarrassment. Ilya admits hockey and sex were his escapes after his mother died. He reveals he is bisexual and has been in a secret relationship with a rival NHL player for 10 years. Though Ilya never says his name, a silent understanding passes between him and Galina, who clearly intuits his boyfriend’s identity. They discuss the imbalance in their support systems and the realistic best- and worst-case scenarios for their relationship. Ilya admits that while he wants to keep their careers and go public, his worst fear is having to return to Russia if outed.
Ilya’s internal struggle manifests through the motif of dreams, which reflects his unprocessed trauma. The section opens with Ilya waking from a recurring dream about his mother, an experience that leaves him physically drained and triggers anxiety that he might be developing her illness. He initially dismisses this fear, debating that his fatigue “could be because I’m depressed” (94), a hesitation highlighting his resistance to vulnerability. By Chapter 14, he confronts this history in his first therapy session, detailing the traumatic discovery of his mother’s body and his father’s subsequent demand that her suicide be treated as an accidental overdose. The dreams function as a psychological barometer, illustrating how his depression impacts him even if he struggles to speak about it openly to Shane or even himself. However, his decision to articulate these fears to a professional marks a vital break from his isolating shame and deepens the theme of Depression as an Isolating Force.
The narrative contrasts the hyper-visible space of hockey arenas with private domestic environments to emphasize the emotional toll of concealment. During the Ottawa-Montreal game, Shane and Ilya are restricted to coded flirtations and stolen glances, performing their well-documented rivalry for the public. Conversely, their time at Shane’s house and their impromptu babysitting of the Pike children offer a rare, unguarded glimpse into their partnership. When the children stage a mock wedding for the two men, the domestic setting becomes a sanctuary where their connection is celebrated as a fundamental truth rather than a career-ending liability. The arenas enforce their roles as adversaries, demanding a public performance that suppresses their shared reality. This stark spatial dichotomy underscores the theme of The Corrosive Burden of a Secret Queer Relationship, as the constant policing of their behavior reflects the pressure on queer athletes to weigh personal authenticity against professional risk.
Shane’s character development highlights the tension between his rigidly controlled public persona and his desire for an open future. In Chapter 10, he confesses to his friend Rose that he resents the unfairness of their hidden life, prompting her to suggest he form a contingency plan. This internal friction escalates during a discussion about the ESPN documentary, in which Ilya expresses frustration that he had to offer generic praise rather than admitting to the cameras, “I wanted to say you are fucking everything to me” (130). This moment forces both men to acknowledge the painful gap between their private devotion and their mandated public silence. Shane’s disciplined exterior, which serves him as team captain, increasingly feels like a cage. The league’s commodification of their rivalry erases their romance, forcing them to participate in a fiction that supports the NHL’s financial goals. This conflict illuminates the theme of Professional Success at the Cost of Emotional Authenticity, demonstrating how institutions can prioritize marketable archetypes over the complex realities of their players.
Similarly, this section of the text explores Ilya’s emotional descent, highlighting how secret intimacy exacerbates his depression. During his Halloween party, Ilya feels alienated despite being surrounded by teammates, retreating to his room in quiet despair. Shane’s surprise visit provides a brief, intense reprieve, but the fleeting nature of their hidden encounters leaves Ilya emotionally shattered. After watching Shane leave the following morning, Ilya breaks down, an overwhelming release that solidifies his decision to seek therapy. The crowded party emphasizes that physical proximity to others cannot penetrate the walls built by a hidden identity and untreated depression. By structuring Ilya’s breaking point immediately after a moment of profound romantic connection, the text makes it clear that love alone, especially when secret and forbidden, cannot cure clinical illness.



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